Still in jail

After he bailed himself out of jail he would not stop calling, emailing and driving by the house I had to call the police and have him arrested again, he is still there. His bond now is $20,000 he needs 10% to get out.

Why does the victim feel so sad?

I feel guilty for having him arrested again and causing him so much financial hardship and losing his freedom.
Makes no since...
He never minded when I had no freedom from his controlling my where abouts and communicating with family and friends.

One time I had gotten out four wash clothes and he wanted to know why I had used four wash clothes. He was assuming I had had someone at the house when he was gone.
The mind controlling is a strong and powerful tool to keep you undercontrolled so that at all times you are careful what you say and what you do as to not send out red flags to make your captive from thinking you are up to something.

Yet I cry for no reason at all....

Today I start therapy for victims of abuse. Lord knows I need it badly. He is still controlling me from jail. I fear the day he gets out from jail. What are the repercussions I am going to have to pay from my actions. Will he leave me alone or how dearly am I going to pay for him losing his freedom, blocking his calls and me not taking him back.

If I stop blogging for over a month he has killed me.