When I was being abused no one heard my pleas. My voice was silent with shame, disbelief that I could love a miscreant.
I find at times in my everyday life someone is trying to abuse me. I am not trying to say that it's just me it is our society that has bully's everywhere. In the past, I would not see the signs. The most recent attempt someone tried to abuse me verbally was this past weekend. I was falling in with both feet with no security rope. Someone I loved accused me of being lazy, that I should exercise more, and that I was like someone else that was basically a useless person to society. That person I was being compared too has mental and physical issues. She has never held a job or taken care of herself, she is my sister.
I worked 43 years always taking care of myself and others. Now I am making it on my own with a little help from government assistance. I do have a small retirement from the City of Ann Arbor and disability from social security from when I worked. I asked him if he could take my trashcan out on Thursday and bring it back on Friday from the side of the road. My doctor has told me not to lift anything heavy until I see a specialist for spinal cord deterioration. He went off on me with verbal abuse. I started crying and walked away. For several days, I had felt really emotional from what he said. Then I realized it is not my fault it is his. He must live with this, not me.
I am on the road to recovery when I can put blame, where it belongs.
I find at times in my everyday life someone is trying to abuse me. I am not trying to say that it's just me it is our society that has bully's everywhere. In the past, I would not see the signs. The most recent attempt someone tried to abuse me verbally was this past weekend. I was falling in with both feet with no security rope. Someone I loved accused me of being lazy, that I should exercise more, and that I was like someone else that was basically a useless person to society. That person I was being compared too has mental and physical issues. She has never held a job or taken care of herself, she is my sister.
I worked 43 years always taking care of myself and others. Now I am making it on my own with a little help from government assistance. I do have a small retirement from the City of Ann Arbor and disability from social security from when I worked. I asked him if he could take my trashcan out on Thursday and bring it back on Friday from the side of the road. My doctor has told me not to lift anything heavy until I see a specialist for spinal cord deterioration. He went off on me with verbal abuse. I started crying and walked away. For several days, I had felt really emotional from what he said. Then I realized it is not my fault it is his. He must live with this, not me.
I am on the road to recovery when I can put blame, where it belongs.
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