A year ago I was stressing over where I would live this year. In August 2015, I found a house to rent in October, felt safe again. Worried about having a place to live, food on the table and medical insurance to cover my medical needs.
Here it is Jan. 2017 I get a check in the mail from a lawsuit against the mortgage company Chase
$55,000,000 settlement against them And I received Cha-Ching a grand total of $8.93. Well, just call me lucky.
February 2016 I found out my medical insurance is being canceled, now I have insurance that doesn't cover my medical needs. They cut food budget down to $16 a month, so no more healthy food that is low calorie. Instead, it is high in carbs to make the dollar go further.
I am not asking for a lot just a place to live that is mine and no-one can kick me out. That I can afford to heat and keep in good condition. Just would like to feel safe in my old age since I have not felt safe most of my life. No vacations, fancy car or jewelry. Just a safe, warm place I can call home.
I have no fine jewelry left, had to sell two years ago to buy food January 2014. That was the winter I got sick and could not run my truck the way it should have been to produce enough money to support the truck and drivers that were driving it. Instead, they stole fuel money from me and blew tires on the truck. Each tire cost $500. Face it, I just make lousy decisions should have kicked the drivers out of the truck then.
In May 2014, I sold my truck paid off what I could. Took three months off to grieve all my losses over the previous seven years.
Last year (2014) I gave up the fight to save my house, overpriced because of the financial crisis that everyone went through. I fought the mortgage company a little over two years. Sometimes you just have to give up a battle to win the war.
I have a steady income, better off than others, but not enough to get where I need to be. Safe.
Now to where I am going with this story is I recently tried to do a Fund-me page and because of sexual assault and child abuse they have it on hold. I am trying to raise money to get 3 Novellas written. Because of the topics I have anxiety attacks and have to stop writing. It is taking me a long time, and to tell the truth, it is very uncomfortable to relive the violence I went through.
I keep trying to no avail, to publish the books so I can generate more income. So I can buy me a little house to live out my days on this earth without feeling in constant fear.
Well, I haven't achieved as much as I would have liked by now, Jan 2017. I am painting which is soothing to the soul.
I do have a small house I call home now; it is not mine but I feel safe here.
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