I started drinking beer this morning at 10:30 am.
Went and took testing for a job at 9:00am
I am so tiered of stressing night after night wondering if he is outside my house.
I am on my 5Th beer just wanting to sleep without fear. God only knows what it is like for me right now. Every hour that goes by I want to know if it is my last hour here on earth.
At night its worse. I turn all of the lights on outside so hopefully it will keep him a way from the house.
I am going to go get me a dog so it can let me know if someone is outside of the house.
It is day time so I don't shake but once night gets here I tremble with fear.
When he is out of jail I go into jail. I keep a chair under the door handle on the front door and an a extended rod on the back door from the wall to the door. Each door has two locks that I keep lock at all times.
Do I leave my home or stay here and wait for him to show up again?
The judge keeps letting him out.
Maybe it is time to buy a gun, many people tell me to buy one.
I have never owned one or wanted one in my home. But it is getting so stressful to just live.
It is day time so I feel safer then at night when under darkness he can creep up to my house and no one can see him, I live in the woods.
Just got call that he was seen heading this way.
So I am watching out the door wall and the living room to see if he is here again.
Went and took testing for a job at 9:00am
I am so tiered of stressing night after night wondering if he is outside my house.
I am on my 5Th beer just wanting to sleep without fear. God only knows what it is like for me right now. Every hour that goes by I want to know if it is my last hour here on earth.
At night its worse. I turn all of the lights on outside so hopefully it will keep him a way from the house.
I am going to go get me a dog so it can let me know if someone is outside of the house.
It is day time so I don't shake but once night gets here I tremble with fear.
When he is out of jail I go into jail. I keep a chair under the door handle on the front door and an a extended rod on the back door from the wall to the door. Each door has two locks that I keep lock at all times.
Do I leave my home or stay here and wait for him to show up again?
The judge keeps letting him out.
Maybe it is time to buy a gun, many people tell me to buy one.
I have never owned one or wanted one in my home. But it is getting so stressful to just live.
It is day time so I feel safer then at night when under darkness he can creep up to my house and no one can see him, I live in the woods.
Just got call that he was seen heading this way.
So I am watching out the door wall and the living room to see if he is here again.
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