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There was never a magic pill or manual written to raise children successfully. Parents do the best they can with what they know, some are successful, others fail miserably and then there are some parents no matter what they did the child was who they are. In my case my parents would not have been my choice.
The mood swings from tears, anger, laughter, confusion, frustration and did develop high blood pressure now. I take aspirin and medical marijuana as needed, it does work. Not daily either. Just when the pain is intolerable. Now if I could just get the emotional fixed, but the pharmaceutical drugs has so many negative effects on me I would rather be known as the crazy lady who lives with 2 dogs, artist who paints pictures, and smokes pot.
She has been trying so hard and getting nowhere.
Tired can't even begin to describe her life.
Denise and her pets surviving the winter until her paintings and prints sell. She is working very hard to get the word out about her paintings.
I have been wondering what my purpose is! I don't think it is ever going to come to me. The only thing I guess was to have my son's. Because having my daughter turned out disastrous for her and her children. Now my heart is broken beyond repair.
My life is lonely, sad and not fulfilling. Have not reached one of my goals.
I think I reached the best part of my life in my past.
So now I wait for the end to come.
It may be a year, or 20, just have to wait and see.
I worked hard, gave much, was always optimistic, now all I see is nothing special anymore.
I am not asking for a lot just a place to live that is mine and no-one can kick me out. That I can afford to heat and keep in good condition. Just would like to feel safe in my old age since I have not felt safe most of my life. No vacations, fancy car or jewelry. Just a safe, warm place I can call home.
I am inflicted with PTSD because of the abuse I have endured from family and men in my life. I look back now and realize the abuse I went t...