No warning

I sometimes daydream endlessly with my thoughts going in many directions.  I really do not understand why such deep sorrow some of us have to endure.   My day can start out quite normal and end with such sadness caused by the one I love.  There is no warning it's coming at all.  Just all of a sudden it happens.  Today I made breakfast and  then he went golfing while I sat on the computer with Dell support for his laptop to get it repaired.  That was quite a while.  Then I Went to the store to get a hamburger to make chili for dinner.  Came home and made the chili and waited for him to come home.  It was starting to get dark so I knew he had to be done golfing. I drove over to the golf course and went inside to see if he was having a beer with the guys.  He was not there, but his car was in the parking lot.  So I checked to see if his clubs were in there and they were.  Called his cell phone and it was still turned off.  Well, it's 10:45 pm and no sign of him.  I think he is with the women from earlier this week.  The day I made him move out and he would not go.  There really must be more to life than heartache and work.

My heart is very sad between my grandbabies being taken and my partner of 5+ years hurting me I just want out please Lord.  Help me find peace.