Don't know what happen

Four days ago I started a downward spiral into depression. This morning my daughter called me from Ohio to say she was in the hospital. She passed out from the loss of blood. Her blood pressure is 70/48. She has been telling Doctors that she had blood in her stools but no one would listen. They continued to treat her for ulcers in her stomach. She told me she was going to receive blood twice today because she is losing that much.

Since I live in Northern Michigan and on a limited income, I can't go down to see her just can not afford too.

Before I heard from her I had been having visual thoughts about cutting my fingers on a deli slicer for meat and cheese, I don't use one or own a slicer. But the pain would be in my fingers and shoot up my arm. I kept telling my self to get those thoughts out of my head. But they would not leave me, I woke up at 3:30 this morning with the thoughts of cutting my fingers on a slicer. How scary it has been having these thoughts I could not get them out of my head. Now I am sure they will disappear now that I know my daughter is in the hospital. Some times having thoughts that make no since will later show what is to be.

Oh Monday night we won our pool games. 1 lost and 1 win. 24 weeks more to go.