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Friday, November 20, 2009

Staying with big sister, turns into nightmare

I am so excited I get to go stay at my big sisters house for the weekend. Her stepson will be there too, he and I are five years old, we always have so much fun together.

Its Saturday and we played all day outside.  At noon we come in and have peanut-butter and grape jelly sandwiches and milk to drink, our favorite.  My sister then gets ready to go to work and leaves us with her husband to watch us; myself, his son and his daughter who was just a baby.

We come in for dinner and then take our baths and get ready for bed.  Before we go to bed we get to watch "Dennis the Menace".  As the show begins he asks me to sit on his lap to watch TV.  Me in my little white night gown with ruffles and little yellow flowers crawls up on to his lap not realizing my innocents is going to be taken from me.

He says lay your head back on my chest.  Then he slides his hand up my leg under my night gown and puts his finger inside my underwear to my private place.  I remember it hurting and me crying.  He says I am sorry I won't do it again.  I get off his lap and go into the bedroom to go to bed.  His son and I shared a room together with twin beds.

I am sleeping when I hear my name being called from a distance.  I crawled out of bed and walked down the hall towards the sound of my name being called, its dark with streams of light coming from the kitchen.  I look around the corner and I see him leaning on the cabinets with no clothes on, he's calling me to come to him.  He keeps saying he is sick and needs my help. Scared to death I run down the hall back to bed and cover my head and try to go back to sleep.

Again I hear my name being called this time it is closer.  I get out of bed and I look in the bathroom and he is sitting on the toilet naked and telling me he is sick and needs me to help him.  His penis is sticking out, he wants me to touch it.  I tell him "NO" and run back to bed.

I wake up and he is lying on top of me telling me to move up and down like he is.  I laid perfectly still and look at his son in the bed next to mine. His son is watching him do this to me.  All I remember is being scared and wanting to go home.  I do not remember anything after that.


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To this day I can not go to sleep right away. It takes me hours to fall asleep, so now I turn the TV on to help me go to sleep.  I lost so much that night.

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