Close to selling off

I am so close to just giving up and running away. Thinking my illness is getting worse from the stress of never knowing from one week to the next what is happening with my life.
Have a campaign going but not getting much responses. A friend promoted, another donated, and my niece donated. In twelve days.
I really need help, but I don't think family and friends believe how bad it is for me. I've always been the strong, dependable, get things done. I am just to weak and tired to be self reliant anymore. My illness is really taking a toll my ability to get things done.
Bless everyone and me too.